Oh I lied....ITS MORE!!!

HOLY COW....We finally got the final numbers from Creighton Financial Aid. After getting awarded all we could from the government on our own, the final numbers of how short we are have finally come in. Are you ready.....oh yes and don't forget the tuition HIKE....we are short $22,950.00 for the year, meaning we are a little over 7K short each of the three semesters. HOLY COW!!! Some of these Jesuits ought to be ashamed of themselves taking these vow of poverty things, then charging or should I say robbing these poor students blind. I've seen what these "fathers" have in their private offices. I have had two of them as instructors here on campus, and they are all too happy to show you their "stuff". On of them had over 700K dollars worth of photography equipment in his office, and his own private gym equipment (might I add top of the line) and he drives a Hummer. Yah....vow of poverty my rear end. All of this graciously provided by the monies from the students Im sure. You can't tell me that teaching two photography classes a week pays for all of that. If it does...SIGN ME UP!!! Oh wait I can't do that either...Father Schlegal has imposed a hiring freeze, and raise freeze. Go figure.

Well I'm still fasting and praying, however I am no closer to finding a solution to our problem. Even if I sold our Van and started taking public transportation with the kids, and sold everything in our home, we would not even get close to helping pay for just one semester. Ive put in over 45 different applications for employment all with no luck because of the hours I haveto be available for my kids to pick them up from school or drop them off to school. I had a couple offers but I would have had to not pick up the kids from school, or be there for them at all the rest of the day. I would never see them at all, and then Will would be stranded at school as well. It just is not looking good at all. I guess I am just going to haveto eat my pride, and get ready to crawl to relatives. I wanted to do this on my own, I want to provide for my family myself, I feel so stupid, and little when I haveto go to someone else and ask for help. Plus it puts a strain on our relationship for whomever I ask, and I feel unworthy to be around them after asking for help. However I guess in this situation I have done all I can on our own, gone to all the agencies I can, been rejected by all I can be, and I guess now it's time to break down my pride, and crawl to others. It's not that I don't love my extended family...I do, I really do. Thats why I feel like such a failure when I haveto go ask them for help. But now if I don't, we will not finish graduate school, and be in worse conditions than we are now. We will have hundreds of dollars of debt come to us with no way of repaying it, and we would be on housing and food stamps the rest of our lives, and have nothing to show for these past six years of sacrifice. I guess the Lord is trying to teach me humility. What a HARD lesson. I don't like it.