I Fell Off....

I fell off the turnip truck, the bike, the wagon, and any other metaphor for falling out of your regiment that you must keep up. I have now officially gained 20 lbs back over this last 6 months. I know what a stupid thing to do. But I have just been so busy...or at least that's the excuse I give myself. I mean this is like my journal, so lets be honest and call a spade a spade. I've been too lazy is what it is. And just like before the surgery I have lost my will power. If I don't stay right on track and do things every day, I loose my focus. I used to weigh myself every morning, and was told to try not to do that. Well then I liked not doing that, so then I would sneak a chip here and there, or nibble on what the kids were eating, or I would just start to let things go little by little. I then would get home from school or a long day with work and the kids, and would look at my machine and say "I'll do it tomorrow, I'm too tired". Well guess what, that day turned into a few days, and then a few months. I can't believe how I have let myself go like this. I could feel my pants getting a little snug, but I just told myself that they would loosen up during the day as I wore them. YAH RIGHT!! Wishful thinking. Anyway I needed to give myself a good long look tonight, and I was appalled. I stepped on that scale and about died. I had started going into what Dr's call the "grazing mode". Where I would eat a little at a time, since I can't eat a large meal at all. I still can't eat an entire cheeseburger, or more than one medium size piece of pizza without getting sick. But I can eat chips and mashed potatoes a little at a time all day long. And that's what I have done. Eat my carbohydrates right onto my hips. Well now what do I do.......I get back onto the horse and follow a "Reset" diet.

Here is the diet. It will help me kick the carbohydrate habit, and get me jump started into weight loss mode again. It will help my metabolism to restart its self. It will also help me get my pouch...that's what us surgery people call our new formed stomachs....back to its tight feeling again and give me the full sensation / sick sensation sooner. On this diet I eat as much of the foods that are on that day as my body will allow. I know it sounds weird, but it really does work the Dr. said. SO here is the plan....

Days One & Two: Liquid Protein low-carb protein shakes, broth, clear or cream soups, sugar-free gelatin and pudding.

Day 3: Soft Protein canned fish (tuna or salmon) eggs, fresh soft fish (tilapia, sole, orange roughy.

Day 4: Firm Protein ground meat (turkey, beef, chicken, lamb), shellfish, scallops, lobster, fresh salmon or halibut.

Day 5: Solid Protein white meat poultry, beef steak, pork, lamb, wild game.

On top of this I will get back to my routine of 45 min of exercise each night except for Sunday night. Hopefully this will get things back to where I should be again. I absolutely refuse to buy new pants when my pants are all just fine from last year and the year before. I do need more sweatshirts, but I refuse to buy anything for myself till I get back on the horse, and use it as a reward. Especially going into the winter months here, and the Holidays, I refuse to gain anymore weight. I didn't work this hard to go back to where I was. SO if you see me eating something bad for me, gently tell me to put it down and back away from the twinkie. ;-) Just kidding...sort of.

I hope by writing this down, that I will mentally get back on track too. Wish me luck. I will keep track of my progress with you all.